Five Days and Counting

I have decided to write on this blog more often but we will see how it goes. Today, I got to sleep in, which felt really good. I may go the doctor tomorrow as I am suspecting a sinus infection. I worked on washing Kristin's clothes up so we can start packing tomorrow. Can you believe that! Packing! For her to leave....



Steve and I went out and ate lunch together and saw Swing Vote, which was good. Kristin spent the afternoon with Korie...as kind of a "last time out" together before she leaves. She took Korie to therapy, went to the mall for lunch and shopped a little bit. Korie enjoyed it.



Back to Kris leaving....I wish she could spend every minute she has left here with us but she has all these "last things" to do with others. And those things are good but I am getting really selfish with our time but trying to understand that I would do the same things if I were her. Tonight is her last time at youth group and I am sure they will do something afterwards.



Tomorrow night we are going out as a family to the Melting Pot. That will be fun and I am looking forward to it.



Twice during the last week, I have been with friends and their very young children. It has brought enjoyment to see them interact with their kids and be around them. But both times, I couldn't help be a little jealous of the time they still have with their kids. Years stretching ahead and special moments to share. Sometimes I wish I had those years again...there are a lot of things I would do different. But again, would I? I admit the years when Kris was small were difficult with all we were going through with Korie. I often feel I didn't do that great job at the beginning of Kristin's life because I could hardly function just to get through a day myself. I am having to trust on God, to pick up on where we let her down and for Him to sustain her...and us, too...as we say goodbye in a few short days.



So, even though tears are right behind the surface, I hug her tight every night, knowing there are very few nights left where I can actually touch her and tell her good night.