Family pictures out in the back yard.... As my family gathered, a wave of homesickness came over me and I almost wept. I wanted my mom, with her silly sayings and her warm voice and love of family; I longed to hear my dad's laugh and the feel of his hand as it clasped mine. I was lonesome for my brothers and their teasing ways and the fun times we shared.
I realize that all through my life, those days will come back to me and all the things my parents tried to teach me will linger in my mind. The steady example of my parents have been something I have tried to follow though sometimes I fail or fall short. Their shining love of life has encouraged me to plod on in life, attempting to always do my best.
These thoughts lead me to think of the path of my own two children and the choices they will make through life. Have I done enough? have I loved enough? have I done what I could? I try to remember that my parents were not perfect. But I knew they loved me and I knew they had my best in mind for me, even if I did not always agree with them. I hope my own children realize the same.
I am who I am today because of my parents. I will never be able to go back in time, I will never again get to talk to them (in this life), ask their advice or just enjoy their company. Some days that makes me very sad. But also, because of them and the way they pointed me to God, I can look forward to something better than the life I had with them here on earth. Perfect scenery, perfect fellowship, all the time we need; it will be sweet....in a way I can't even understand. And it is because of "Easter" that this will be true. Because of what Christ did for us..this is why I will spend more time with my parents someday.
And my children? They will overcome my mistakes. They will both be there with us. Korie will be whole and healed. All these longings will be gone and Christ will be all I need. Yes, this Easter puts a longing in my heart...but a longing for what will BE....someday soon..I hope.
